Sweet dreams

Oooh. Ooooh.

She moans.

Body writhing.

Back arching.

A beautiful bridge.

Of flesh and ribs.

I kiss her chest. 

Admire her lips.

But as I stare.

Look upon her delicate frame.

My tears unravel.

A history of pain.

It's been so long.

She says.

Reads my mind.

Too long.

I whisper back. 

Fingers caressing.

Her eyelids.

Her nose and cheeks.

Where have you been.

I ask. Voice wavering.

A waterfall of tears.

An ocean of grief.

A small smile she gives.

A bittersweet marker.

Of the life she lives.

Having fun.

She laughs. Nonchalantly.

I watch her calmness.

Collarbone heaving.

Translucent white skin.

Her arms are reaching.

Around my body.

Pulling me towards her.

A grip so tight. I suffocate.

Never let me go.

I think.

I won't.

She says.

I close my eyes. 
Enclose her with my embrace.
Please. Please.
Let me sink into her.
Let me be with her.
Let her stay.
This one time. 



I open my eyes.
Daylight seeping through the blinds.
It hits the spot on the bed.
Where she used to be.
It is empty.
It has been empty for years.
And I can do nothing.
But stare.
In silence.
Because last night.
Was just a dream.